90923 Vegetarian Eggs????

Ok! This is just a bit too much! I went Publix for grocery shopping today, and I found this! [see photo]

Vegetarian Egg!!!!!???? What the hell???? It's an egg... but it's for vegetarians!!!! I really don't get it for all these "tree hugger", "no killing animals vegetarians", "no red meat" fake products. And now they "produce" this kind of "vegetarian eggs"... man, this is just a bit way too much!

It's ok for people choose to be vegetarians, it's ok for people to choose the "green/environmental friendly" products and love our the only earth. But all these "go green" commercials and products, how many of them are really producing them FOR THE EARTH? Or.. for the money!? Most of them just try to confuse and make people feel guilty of NOT choosing their products. Can vegetarians eat eggs? Maybe some of them YES! But for the vegetarians for vegans who don't eat eggs, will this so called "vegetarian eggs" make them grab their money from the pocket and buy the eggs? You tell me! It's still an egg! Real chicken egg! But it's "All-natural vegetarian feed"! Man, it's still a damn chicken egg!

90920 我不該看到的...可是還是看到了..

星期日載Bob去機場之後，就在I-85回家的路上，突然又塞車了！唉唷～怎麼跟我上次塞車膀胱差點爆炸那次是同一個地方！！幸好這次離開機場前我有去peepee了...

這次塞車塞的有點誇張，車子移動的速度爆慢，慢到我可以停在路上玩Doodle Jump！邊玩邊開車！哈哈哈... 就在開始塞車之前，好像有看到跑馬燈上寫著「I-85 all lane closed」，不過我自己也沒有很確定！就在塞了將近一個多小時後，當然之中也看到有救護車往前衝，當自己的車子來到事故最前線，哇！真的是全部的線道通通都封了耶！可是也沒看到汽車碎片呀！？？真奇怪，那還封什麼呀！？封到只剩下Exit 96可以出去，只有一線道耶！當然我也不辜負台灣人開車的美名，往前替自己殺出一條路來！

就在出了出口之後，其實我不該看到的！可是我還是很變態的跟全部的台灣人一樣（其實美國人也一樣），在經過出口的時候，還是忍不住再次伸長脖子看了一眼...... 就這麼一眼，很不小心的被我看到了..........

我看到一個人躺在路上，臉被蓋住了... 當下的感覺很奇怪

那種感覺就是.. 哇！那個人死了耶..

然後是... 可是怎麼沒有汽車碎片！？事故現場也不像車禍！

之後是... 難道是謀殺？？可是也不像呀！

最後是... 哇！這是我第一次看到dead people耶..(雖然看不到1秒)

這種感覺真的很奇怪...爺爺奶奶過世的時候我也沒看過，這次居然在這種地方給我看到了...

回家之後看電視.. 晚一點的新聞有報導了，看完之後蠻心酸的..原來是一個婦人在285號高架道路上看到路旁有人車子拋錨 她停下來幫忙，結果突然有一個無照駕駛的男人無故衝撞到她停在路肩的車，然後再把婦人撞飛到30公尺下面的北上85號公路，婦人當場死亡！被婦人幫忙的那個人也重傷！所以我所在的85號公路沒有汽車碎片......

這件事情讓我想了一段時間，好心的人卻沒有好報？難怪美國人越來越冷漠了，大部分的人都不願意去幫助其他有需要幫忙的人！原因是因為很多人因為幫忙了陌生人，反而被反告致人於死！今天這位婦人幫忙了身旁的一個陌生人，反而被另一台車給撞死了！這個世界...到底怎麼了！？？？當美國人常常說著... Let's make it a better place, a better world! 可是今天殘酷的事實卻澆熄了這股熱情！今天發生的事情... 讓我思索了很多，你問我，是否我有了答案....我說..我還沒有答案......

新聞連結：http://www.ajc.com/news/police-charges-pending-in-142554.html

Marcelino Chavez-Lopez was charged with second-degree vehicular homicide, driving without a license and failure to maintain his lane, DeKalb County Sheriff's spokesman Jason Gagnon said.

The woman was trying to help another driver who lost control of his vehicle on the junction's elevated ramp when a truck rear-ended the woman's car, pushing her over the guard wall and sending her plummeting more than 50 feet to I-85 below, police said.

The woman, who has not been named, died at the scene of the accident, DeKalb police said.

The woman was traveling I-85 south onto I-285 east when she stopped, DeKalb police spokesman.

“The man had spun out of control,” said Gagnon. “As she was helping him, another man in a truck came around the ramp. He struck her vehicle, which then hit her and knocked her off the ramp.”

The 53-year-old woman fell about 50 plus feet onto the 85 northbound lanes, which were blocked for several hours. The woman died on the scene.

90916 思緒因久未擁有的極度平靜而感到激動不已

今天下午突然興起了靜坐的念頭，把白色毛巾鋪在地毯上，跪地而坐。用呼吸清除掉所有的雜緒，自從大二那天騎車在椰林大道上感覺到「存在」之後，今天，我又再次的找回自己的「存在」。

存在是一種非常平靜的感覺，感覺自己跟外界是隔離的，感覺自己是獨立於宇宙的。呼吸帶著我到了Yanni的海邊，我依舊跪坐在金黃色的草地上，望著眼前湛藍的汪洋與無盡的天穹，閉上眼，張開雙手，放下捲起的長髮，海風拂著我的身體，嘴巴內也感受到海的鹽味...

這種平靜的存在，讓我在靜坐的時候無意識的流下了眼淚，我用雙手很輕很輕的拭去，就像上帝的雙手，告訴我...你怎麼哭了呢？我告訴上帝，這種久未擁有的極度平靜讓我感到激動不已，祂沒說話，只是輕輕的拂著我的額頭...

我回顧自己的人生，在紙上用手寫了一回，我感謝所有的人在我18歲以前給我無盡的愛，18歲以後，似乎可以感謝的人就沒那麼多了... 我開始創造自己的路，可是卻走的沒那麼輕鬆。我太年輕了，年少輕狂。現在的我，30歲，可以開戰了！當我手裡握有最簡單的東西的時候，也是我擁有最多的時候... I want what I want!

90915 Why I'm doing this?

I really don't understand why this trip has been so awful!? Is it all about stress? Or something else? Why loving someone is so damn hard? It's 10PM, but I can't write all this right now, Bob is still awake, and tears has already occupied my eyes....

It's nearly 12AM, after ponder for a little while, I found out it's not really loving someone is so damn hard. It's.... maybe I don't want to commit with the person anymore? Now, I always ask myself that "Am I having the most scary feeling for myself? ~ The IT"S OK! I DON"T MIND! I DON"T CARE! feelings." When it comes to those feelings, it always means the relationship/bond between us is breaking down... breaking.. down...

He's a big fat old guy who never take care of himself. If things won't kill him and it doesn't hurt, then that's ok! For having neils problem for 30 years, he has never think about taking care of it. For getting so damn fat that he even have very hard time for clipping the toe neils, he doesn't care. For having terrible teeth, he doesn't care. For having thick skin on his feet, he doesn't care. He's 18 years older than me, and he has no money, he has no house, he's fat and ugly!

He has the potential for running the business with me so I love him, he has very similar values about teaching kids so I love him. We have a lot in similar for life and value, the places we want to go so I love him. But he's not passion as before anymore. He doesn't understand how much I want him to be accepted to my family so I really want him to go back with me for the Moon Cake Festival this year. He's not even fighting for going. How can I face all the people who I told them that you're going back with me!? I hate you! I hate you're not fighting for OUR FUTURE. I have patience, I have passion, but you are grinding them away... when someday my heart doesn't beat for you...... it will mean... it's dead.

Sometimes, the image of our life when we get old, you pass away, I don't think I can still breath or do anything without you around. They cover the flag for you, I play "My Way" for you! Derek and Sophie are standing next to me. I love you.... I have never in love with someone like this... Why you just can't fight for me for a week in your life that might make a lot of differences between you and my family!? I might get all the blessings that I want from my family. But you just can't make it..............

My heart is beating.. but beating with less passion now....